once in your life when you let your guards down..when you let all your defenses go when you let go that air of breath youve been holding in for so long you realize what youve been missing all along...what youve punsihed yourslef to this comfinement of lonliness and haunting memories of the past that only easts away at these wounds..

But it feels so good to love, be loved, to say those words..and you never deserved this..you never deserved to be turned away..to be treated so coldly..when ally uo gave was love and kind words to aoften my wothering soul..it was you who made me see all this..it was you who set my soul free..

You give me so much..i value everything unmaterialistic and you repelnish the bounty wherever i turn..however can i repay you? i realized how much i love you when hung up the phone and my heart longed to pick it up and dial your number i missed you so bad...ive neevr felt the pain this love brings..but it feels so good

now that ive said it the word taste so good i want to say it again and again liek candy to a child i love you i love you i love you i cant get enough of you how could i not realize this before? i see things as if theyre new now...and youve given me this gift..god why arent you here? i would give you back the favor in a heartbeat..your heart beat..i want to be next to mine..in rhythmn with mine..in time in time ill be with you....god time is my enemy now...